
Why do people drink? Reasons?
It helps them to relax, it helps reduce anxiety,it stops them worrying about things, to deal with stress or maybe because they are depressed? Today i had a bottle * alcoholic drink* opps and i thought by drinking it one big gulp down everything could be solved.Everything would be back to normal . Nothing has happened right from the beginning. I'm just too naive. Everything can't be changed . Everything is still the same. I'm just lying and bluffing myself. But one thing i know after drinking it my face turned red (like i put blusher) haha. My eyes became bloodshot and I'm feeling very hot. Maybe i never drank one whole bottle before in my life and this could be the after effect. My stubborn cough still not recovered! DAMN!!
I really can't shake those memories off. I wonder do you feel the same way too? Everything i do just reminds me of you. I'm feeling fucking irritated . i can't concentrate on wad ever I'm doing. I'm trying . i'm really trying . i try not to contact you. Try not to think of you . i try all sort of things but every part of my room is filll wif your memories and your presence. i still have lots of things nvr do wif you. i still rmb we wanted to do so many things tgth but now everything is over. i know i fucking caused it. I'm the one and i know you blamed me for all this. In your mind i just ruined everything. i never mend to hurt you. All i wanted is you by my side. Baby i love you. i know i should let go. it will be unfair for u. You have gotten him and i should not be jealous or bother wad you two are doing . but i know i can't. My mind will just get into a whirl and my imagination will go wild. I'm very afraid he will take advantage of you. =(. You just swept my heart away. Tell me that all this is not happening?
Labels: Return of the day we had before.
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