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I want to talk to you . A lot . I really do , I just don't have the nerve to text you. I don't want to bother you , I don't want to screw things up . I'll call you instead but everytime I know that you're with him, I rather hang up .

♥ツ 2:33 AM

It's funny, how when someone says they love you, you can't really feel it ,
But when they say they don't love you anymore,
You can feel every ounce of what was drain out of your entire being.

I love seeing all those sweet couples.
They make me realised that there is something actually called "Love" out there.
I really envy them . (:
It brings the smile out of me .

♥ツ 11:14 PM

I want to find a girl that I don’t have to pretend everything is okay when it’s really not. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put on a real one. I don’t feel hurt and alone when I’m with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. You’re easy to talk to, and you listen to me. I don’t have to worry about holding back with you. I don’t feel self conscious. I don’t ever feel insecure or sad. you show me that you really do care, and you’re not just pretending. I really appreciate your company, because with you I’m different. With you, I’m happy.

When I'm with you I'm insecure.
When I'm sad I just have to say I'm fine.
I know that I'm different from your friends, you are not yourself when you're with me .
You never listen to me . You trusted your friends more.
I have to pretend that everything is okay .
I feel hurt and alone when I'm with you because he is constantly on your mind. =/
You're hard to talk with because whatever things i mention, you will always have something to object.
When i'm with you i called you "fucked up" . I never regret calling you this because i'm more fucked up then you.
I always wonder why I chased after you in the first place when you have alr so many suitors.
Why you chose me when you can't let go of them . Till now it still left me pondering.

Now that all is gone, at times when certain things came across it will remind me of you. It reminds me of your smile (:
I don't care if is genuine or not . I only know that you beautiful when you're smiling and not frowning and arguing with me !!
But I know you have your own life to led . The only regret I have till now is not being able to be by your side everytime you're feeling down .

I'm delicating this song to you! HAHA * "4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani

♥ツ 12:17 PM

“Most people don't believe something can happen until it already has. That's not stupidity or weakness, that's just human nature.”

♥ツ 11:09 PM

Think of something really hard you've had to go through in the past.
Well you survived it. You're alive aren't you ?
Think about that the next time you're going through a really hard time .
you'll pull through. You'll survive. You're strong .

If you asked me how many times you've crossed my mind , I'd say once,
Because you really never left.

♥ツ 12:22 AM

I think I'm drunk .
I'm writing all this shit.
I yearn to see you but every time I'm meeting you quarrels are bound to happen. Why?!
Why can't it be good. Why does it feels like i'm just a clown?
Do you know that I miss you so much ?
Do you know that I wanted to see you ?
No you don't .
I'm disappointed to know that everything has changed.
Whatever I gave you has changed too. I'm not blaming you but just blamed myself for not being capable enough to give you the things you wanted. What does a coach can be compared to a gucci ?
What I did ytd is wrong . I should not have done it.
After today I have decided to give up completely. I can't changed anything like what you said. I can only accept it.
I wished you were here . I need to kiss you. I need a hug to tell myself that everything is fine.
I have decided to leave. To back out from this shit. Goodbye.
Is fucking not worth to even feel sad . Why does my eyes feel so teary . Why do i care for you when you alr have someone out there?
Why can't i fucking forget you ? Why do I still think of you when you're not even thinking of me.
That's reality . Nothing can changed it. I do not regret that however I regret the conversation that I wanted to tell you.
I regret the things left unsaid and it will never be because you will never understand what I'm trying to tell you. We are 2 different world apart.
I just want you to take care of your health and be happy. That's all that matters to me.
Why am i even writing all this when you don;t even know. Why should i be so uptight when something happened to you? Why should i be concern when you're upset? Most importantly do you know that I've still have feeling for you ? Is no point trying because Andy you are just wasting your time.
All you know is at the end of the day you're still thinking of the person that has left you completely broken . You don;t want to miss them anymore , you don;t want to love them anymore but you just know that you always will.

8cans and 1/2 a bottle...
Today: Be Happy
Tml:Be happy
Everyday: Be happy

♥ツ 10:33 PM

I once read somewhere that when you can't make a decision, you should flip a coin.

Because the minute is in the air, you know exactly what you want the answer to be .

I must not let it affect me .
But is affecting me alot. =/

♥ツ 8:58 PM

Have you ever loved someone so much .... until you didn't care what happened to youself?

Damn.. why should I still be concerned about you.
Few more mins and is V day!
Hope things could go well for you tml .
Honestly I don't wished to see you being with him but I only know his the reason that could make you feel happy.
fml. goodbye.

It really makes my day seeing you smile but I know I'm not the reason why. =/

♥ツ 10:51 PM

The only space I had over here.
I really don't wished to see you in such a state. I've finally accepted everything. Accepted that why I had to encourage you and saying all the nice things for both of you. Think I've nvr done it to anyone before. Hoping that things will be fine, because I know I was once like this . Thinking of how you guys had alr planned so far ahead has make me distance myself from you.

I know that i'm just a substitute. It has never been once true. Throughout the whole night I've been thinking why ? Reflecting and realise I've gain nothing. I need to work hard. I need to accomplish something . Nearly 2 years of my life has been wasted...

"Be still and enter into the silence. Allow your mind to cease its restless thinking. Wait. Let the answer come in its time"

I'll still be there whenever you need me .

♥ツ 9:19 AM

Few more days and is V day !
Cherish them or they will perish . LOL.

It has been a week.
I wanted to call you .
I wanted to ask you out but i know .......... =/

♥ツ 9:58 PM